Frends

 I can't tell you been mean to at all we have help each other. But you have disappeared or you just don't do what you say you're going to do and you come up with some of the craziest reasons reasons you know that aren't right accusing me of trying to steal your money come on now you know better that was one the other one was just to the other day I supposedly sold her pills have you ever known me to have any pills or take any or do anything with them opanas are about yet and that's been how long ago I'm never texts anything else other than those that's not how I am I I don't I don't go and try this that and the other without somebody else doing it and showing me the way this is playing out it heroin the man you blame that on Taylor opana Taylor believe me and I don't blame you I'm the one that jumped in with both feet but I'm not the one to go adventuring into other drugs and other pills just not me but I will try. let's talk about just leaving me her and driving if you want to be with your woman I got that man I understand you want to be with her and don't want nobody around got that but you don't read somebody on like oh here we go in 3 hours later you haven't came back don't you ever came and got me like you said you were shut the fuk up I'm just a dummy that would sit there and just wait I want to trust you that much believe in you was probably only one other person to give a shit more than what I do about you and that's your mom and I don't mean any kind of fucked up sexual way I just mean as a friend somebody that I can be around and I can count on I don't have a problem with giving everything I've got to help to make things to where we can live right I'm done that without any question but it seems like you take advantage of that. I'm not trying to be a mooch in got to take things from you and do more drugs and take your drugs or anything like that not really think that you'd gotten something yesterday on your own came back to the room that's why you wanted me to stay there and not come down come with you because you wanted to do them then she got there Blaine left you have relations got that but I'm not seeing you tell me every detail what I'm saying is that you need at least tell me something other than leave me set and tell me oh I'm on my way I'm coming I'll be there. and you know I understand you don't want everybody knowing your business what you're doing all the time. But I put my part into to the room to okay I'm not I'm cool with it staying out I was staying outside in the car that's cool I was good with that but that's all you had to do the first time you didn't have to just leave me sitting high and dry you're not tell me nothing can you take the first time you've done it far as I can see don't want me around all right I can go with that all I ever asked you say hey I don't want you around to tell me any details to go away all right don't be unhappy but I don't I would do it the one you just lay me sick when you don't you say oh yeah it'll be okay yeah yeah I'll be right back I'll be right back and then you aren't what the fuck what have I done or you want to do me that way I know you're not a big talker I got it but you can say something. Just leave it in the hanging in the air I figured you don't say anything you don't want to be in the middle of conflict any whatsoever but when you don't say anything that put you in the middle of all of it and causes more conflict give you more problems known further down the road cuz you know it has. I just don't know what to do I leave and I feel like shit like I'm running out on you maybe that's just a flaw in my character I care maybe sometimes too much I hate the thought of losing a friendship I don't mean anything else I'm not after anything else other than being a friend worries me that I think that you think that I'm trying to be more than what a friendship is I'm not sure I understand that that's why I asked you if I do I have a snowball's chance in hell and you said no I'm backed off. But I don't ask enough questions I'm not dummy that some people think that I am I can see things going on I've seen a lot of things going on but I've let them slide I'd let them go because it's not worth having a headache over like when we had the room over here at the budgetel you supposed to rain in pay that last week you said you had it and everything like that next thing I know I'm getting phone calls I get there don't know that it was you but they say it wasn't them that's okay I didn't mean all that shit anyway we're just getting in the way there's no way to keep keep it moving aroundI'm not saying you did anything I'm just saying it looked really odd. Not bring me things up because I want them fixed I'm accusing you of anything I'm bringing these up because in my head there was questions on it but then after I let it go because it's just not worth it look at I care about you as a friend and I want to keep you as a friend and try to communicate and talk to you and tell you what's going on but you don't bothering you you don't say it when you want something personal I guess you can call it you don't say it I don't I don't need to know the details all you have to do is say like you did last night we need some alone time or whatever know your rare you don't have to make a big deal about it like I did I didn't make a big deal about it. I picked up my stuff and just left. 90% of the time you're the best person you can have as a friend that 10% man got to work on that because you turn into a real dick I can't stand it. All you do is say something not asking you to change with the people that are there for you you need to be there for them or at least not be against them it seems like I know I say talk is cheap actions speak louder than words. If I did the things that you have done to me leaving me not telling me anything and I'll be there and did not coming you would want to tell me to go fuck myself the first time and never speak to me ever again or you'd want to beat the hell out of your boat I left you up in Indiana and hind drive with no way around you would not be a happy camper and all and you know it but lift you up with you a happy camper you let me know it you probably wouldn't have waited as long as I did but there's a nice guy part coming out of me trying to do what I was told. When you get this can you read it give me a call tell me if I'm right or wrong alright later mean you have a good day